Cuttin' ties and leavin' town

I was talking with Philippe the other day. General talk about our plans for February and what not. I have some traveling on the docket - Budapest and Romania. I am SO excited. A week with Tom seeing a country I have been wanting to see for awhile. It will be grand. We also talked about home for a bit. He went back to Montreal for Christmas. I told him that there are a lot of people that I don't care about any more and he seemed to understand that. Being here makes it easier to not deal with those people, who by no means do I hate, but they just don't play the same role in my life anymore. Coming back to the States, whenever that happens, is going to be weird. There are several people who I just don't feel connected to anymore and I, personally, don't feel like putting in the effort to "save" a friendship. I have some amazing friendships and some have even managed to grow after I left the country. It is kinda weird how things end up working out, eh? I think I am over being bitter but am sure that I will have to deal with that whenever it is I make my return to the States. It is nice that I have made some good friends here in Paris. Friends I know I am going to keep for a long time. Friends I know I can travel to Eastern Europe for a week with and know that I won't hate them by the end.

I don't know why I have been thinking about home some much lately. Maybe I just realized how little I actually talk to anyone from home, including my family. Not that it is a bad thing. I shouldn't be in Paris and trying to live my life in Pgh. My pgh life wasn't the best when I left it - part of the reason I wanted to come to Paris. I am excited to see how my reintegration goes. To me the situation looks kinda bleak but then again you never know what the next 6-7 months will bring. Plus I am not the only person return from abroad so I won't be in it alone.

But let's focus on ROMANIA. Dracula's Castle!

Let's be positive!

Well, well. Things are going rather well, I must say. First of all in snowed in Paris today. So it only lasted 5 minutes but it was snow nonetheless and that makes me a happy camper.

I have my travel plans somewhat finalized for February. I was going to go to Budapest and Vienna with Krystal and Purwa but that was getting too complicated and was going to be over a week. That is a bit much for me. So instead Tom and I will be going to Budapest and Romania. I am not sure where in Romania but we will cross the border and I will leave the EU. This is SO exciting for me as I have been wanting to go to Romania since seeing a "may I ask you a few question?" Romania edition RDK movie. This is just the year to do things I have always wanted to do. So from the 20th to 27th of February I will be in Eastern Europe and then classes start on the 28th.

Finals are coming up. I really don't know what to expect from my philo final. I have been focusing more on my history final when I probably should pay more attention to philo. C'est la vie. I just hope to God I pass all my classes. Really I am just ready for this semester to be over with. So very close. A nice 3 week break is definitely in order. This school just takes it out of you sometimes.

I may have found a job in Paris this summer. We'll see how that goes. The EU internship in DC would be cool but the issue is that I only have 6 weeks that I can really do anything and who wants someone for 6 weeks? I am still hopeful.

I have found a hipster dance party to attend this weekend. Judith and Tom are coming with and I am very much looking forward to a bit of dancing and just having a nice night out with good people and speaking French. I have been feeling pretty good about my French as of late.

Dad finally got his passport so he can come visit but things are still up in the air. It all depends on what the neurologists says and how he feels. If he has constant migraines all the time it would be best for him not to come to Paris I think. We'll see how that goes.

Things with Phil are good. I miss him but I don't have this dying need to be with him. I think this is a sign of a nice healthy relationship. It will be really weird to actually be together again come August. God, that is still 7 months away. But that is also 7 months I get to spend in Paris which I think is the greatest city ever. It is really nice have something so stable when a lot of things in life aren't.

I have been thinking recently about the eminent return to Pittsburgh. It will be good, I know but it will also be really weird. I left this place for a year and then come back and I know things will be different. I know I am different. I have no desire to ever be in MD again, but that is old news. I am looking forward to Pgh but I just have no idea what things are really going to be like. I know who I am living with and I know it will be nice and cozy. Chris decided that cozy will be the word for next year and I very much agree with him.

Enough rambling. More reading about Vichy!

Ug

So I called home today. Found out that Dad has a cyst on his brain. Said cyst is most likely the cause for his constant migraines. He has an appointment with a neurologist the 24th. I don't think Dad is coming to visit.

This is how to be fwuffy

yeah - but i see you as my soulmate so whatever i need to do itll all be more than worth it cuz i just want to be with you and live my life with you

How did I get so lucky?