Holy Shit

I am going to be gone soon. I am leaving Paris. I am returning to America. That's it. The show is over. This year is done. Finished. Yeah...

I can't believe it. I am not going to be able to walk around the most beautiful city on the face of the earth at my leisure. I won't be able to get a crepe on a street corner. I won't hear an accordion player on the metro. No more picnics on the Champs de Mars on along the banks of the Seine. It is coming to an end. I don't want it to. I love Paris and I love my life here. I have made some amazing friends and this year have been spectacular. I know I have bitched and complained but when it is all said and done Paris has been the most amazing experience of my life and having to leave it is really hard.

I am really sad. I always knew that it would end but you never think that point is going to actually come. At some moments it seemed as if it would never end but now that the end is actually here I don't know what to do with myself. Paris, France, Europe...it's done. I know I will come back, I hope I will come back. But it will never be the same. It won't be with Judith, Clark and Ilaria.

This year has been great and I have learned a lot. I am so extremely glad I have had this year. But it is always sad and difficult to end and to say goodbye to something wonderful.